So as expected, I deleted the entry I posted hours ago. I've been blogging for years now and I should already know that blogging when you're mad is a no-no. I said so many stupid things. Tsss. You know how when you're mad and you just type whatever crosses your mind. I was like that this afternoon. Thank goodness no one read it, well I hope nobody read it. Hehe.
So I was having a hard time lately. And there's no else to be blamed but me. With all the mistakes I did, it's amazing how my parents, especially my mother, still manages to love and support me in whatever choices I make in life. Most of the time, I feel like I don't deserve all the love and understanding they give me. I wonder if I will ever be able to give them back even half of those that they have given me.
I was thinking about my past mistakes and the disappointments I gave my mother. I wonder if I would ever be like her when I become a mother, too. I don't think I'd be as loving and as understanding as she is to me. Some people said that whatever headache you gave your parents when you were young, your future children will give you twice (or even more) as hard. Will I ever be ready to handle the headaches my future children will give me?
Naks. Serious much? But seriously, I'm so thankful how my mother is always willing to give me millions of second chances.