Whenever there's a situation where I need to introduce myself, I always describe myself as someone who is a happy person. I tell people that I find happiness in little things, that colors can cheer me up in an instant and that I do not dwell on the sad things. But you know what? I don't think I'm still that kind of person.
My life isn't as happy as it was before, I'm not as cheerful as I was, I'd rather stay at home than to go out with friends. I haven't even gone out of the house since Monday. I'm always here in the room. I would go downstairs to eat or to watch the television. But mostly, I just really stay inside this room. Either checking stuff online, watching TV or just lying on the bed.
I'm just so sad right now. I try to entertain myself with the things which usually make me happy, but i's not as easy as it was anymore. Before I go to sleep, there are times when I would find myself tearing up. I feel like nothing's going right in my life right, I feel like I don't and can't do anything right.
All of a sudden, it's so difficult to be happy. All of a sudden, those little thing I see do not even make me smile anymore. All of a sudden, even the rainbow doesn't appeal to me like before. Can someone please bring back the old me? Can someone please tell me how to be happy? Really happy.. Please?