For a week, I was given a chance to live a life that I wanted to live. I felt so happy. I felt so free. I felt responsible for myself. I did not worry much, in fact, I did not worry at all. Well, except for that one time, but I got it settled right away. It was really fun. I know I said this already but I felt really, really, REALLY happy. I've been dreaming of living a life like that and I am really thankful I experienced it. Even for just a short while.
But then again, wouldn't it be a lot better if I were given a longer time to enjoy it? Yes, it was tiring. Even exhausting at some point, but if you were to ask, I can totally live a life like that! I would love to re-live that moment over and over again. I still cannot believe how so many things happened and had been accomplished for a week. So many thing had to be done and somehow, everything got settled. There was even an unexpected accomplishment which made everything more worthwhile.
I do not even know who how to put into words how happy I've been. It's crazy. Happy. And now that it's over, it's making me really sad. And I know I cannot be sad. I shouldn't be sad. What I got to enjoy was an answered prayer and getting sad that it was over isn't good. I should always remind myself to be more thankful rather than feeling sad. There are just those times when I really couldn't help but to feel a little (okay, not just a little) sad. I'm happy that it happened, but sad that it had to end.
I know I will have my time for that again. And while waiting for that time, I will make sure to do the best I can to make myself ready for 'that'.
Anyway, summer is coming and I don't know what the family's plan is! Excited? Maybe. Maybe not.